Grow Through What You Go Through

This weekend I am celebrating my 31st birthday, which in itself is not a big deal at all.  But for me, this birthday carries a heavy weight as it marks ten years that I have been with my husband, Duece.  Duece has been with me through my most difficult life experiences—the sudden, unexpected, and muchContinue reading “Grow Through What You Go Through”

Arming for Battle Against Depression

Immersing myself in nature allows me to both disconnect from the problems of my small life while connecting with the power of the earth.  With my feet on the ground, step by step, I am reminded that I am not the center of the world.  I am merely one of billions of human beings luckyContinue reading “Arming for Battle Against Depression”

Risk. If Only I was Writing a Guide to the Board Game…

Making the decision to get pregnant was not an easy one, nor was it one that my husband and I took lightly.  Many mental health disorders have been diagnosed in my family, including my father, and relatives on both maternal and paternal sides of the family.  And obviously, I myself have bipolar disorder.  In additionContinue reading “Risk. If Only I was Writing a Guide to the Board Game…”

Leave Me Be, Anxiety!

Here I sit, on a beautiful Sunday morning, outside on the floating ‘zen’ deck my husband helped me build.  The air is still cool.  The birds are singing lovely melodies.  The warmth of the sun peeking through the trees is warm on my face.  I am surrounded by the green leaves of trees in myContinue reading “Leave Me Be, Anxiety!”

A Bump in the Road is Just That

We often grieve the loss of loved ones, but have you ever considered that we grieve the loss of our health?  Coping with the ‘loss’ of my mental health due to lifelong mental illness has been complicated.  I am still working toward reality acceptance and processing what this ‘loss’ means for me, my loved ones,Continue reading “A Bump in the Road is Just That”

Return To Work, Take Two

“What should I tell people when I go back to work?” “I just want to be treated normally by my co-workers.” “I’m worried I’ll get fired.” “How will I handle the judgment from my colleagues?”  These are just some of the concerns I heard from the amazing people in partial hospitalization who were preparing toContinue reading “Return To Work, Take Two”

Be Vulnerable? I Don’t Think So.

What does vulnerability mean to you?  For me, it’s stepping out of the shadow and removing the “perfect” mask to expose my full, authentic self. And it is both terrifying and amazing. Vulnerability does not come easy for me.  The diagnosis of two mental health disorders battled fiercely with my perfectionism.  And my concern regardingContinue reading “Be Vulnerable? I Don’t Think So.”

Panic Disorder Sucks. But I Can Accept That.

It’s graduation day!  Panic disorder led me to a partial-hospitalization program.  Choosing to accept that I will have panic disorder forever led me to graduation.  Here’s how I got there: I am still learning to manage my bipolar disorder, and trust me, I am far from having it down.  But this time I’m off workContinue reading “Panic Disorder Sucks. But I Can Accept That.”

Mental Illness Superpowers: An Intro

I’m Ali.  I am a full-time occupational therapist.  I live in a house with my husband and fur-babies.  I have been married for four years.  Some of my interests include traveling and spending time outdoors, playing music, creating art, writing, and watching my favorite TV shows.  Oh, and did I mention I have a mentalContinue reading “Mental Illness Superpowers: An Intro”