I Get Knocked Down, But I Get Up Again

Chronic mental illness feels like fighting in a lifelong battle you can never win.  The exhaustion of getting knocked down, and knowing only you can get yourself back up again, and again, and again, feels like too much sometimes.  Depression lies to us time and time again.  Depression tells us that we should keep ourContinue reading “I Get Knocked Down, But I Get Up Again”

A Heart Full of Gratitude

I woke up this morning with a heart full of gratitude. Last week in my dialectic behavior therapy (DBT) group, I shared that I was feeling more and more confident with coping with crises and significant mood swings, but am really struggling with managing the “daily grind.”  I come home from work and I amContinue reading “A Heart Full of Gratitude”

Shifting a Depressed Brain Toward Gratitude

With the uncertainty of when the COVID-19 crisis in our country will resolve, making plans is difficult.  My husband, friends, and I have canceled an international trip twice, for which we spent months planning—something I’m sure many can relate to.  The evenings and weekends are blank squares on the calendar, except for an occasional hikeContinue reading “Shifting a Depressed Brain Toward Gratitude”

Willfulness: Personal Enemy Number One

As my physical anxiety symptoms make their unwelcome return, I have been reflecting on the last few weeks.  What were the triggers?  Why is anxiety increasing instead of improving?  Well I think there is one obvious trigger—the stress and uncertainty of the election.  Add to that continued worry and difficulty with my fertility journey, andContinue reading “Willfulness: Personal Enemy Number One”

A Bump in the Road is Just That

We often grieve the loss of loved ones, but have you ever considered that we grieve the loss of our health?  Coping with the ‘loss’ of my mental health due to lifelong mental illness has been complicated.  I am still working toward reality acceptance and processing what this ‘loss’ means for me, my loved ones,Continue reading “A Bump in the Road is Just That”