A Letter to My Younger Self

Do you remember all those nights you spent crying, but you weren’t really sure why?  Do you remember those days you couldn’t make it to class or to work, but you really didn’t know why?  What about the doubts you had about if you could even bear to continue living—the thoughts you were ashamed toContinue reading “A Letter to My Younger Self”

A Heart Full of Gratitude

I woke up this morning with a heart full of gratitude. Last week in my dialectic behavior therapy (DBT) group, I shared that I was feeling more and more confident with coping with crises and significant mood swings, but am really struggling with managing the “daily grind.”  I come home from work and I amContinue reading “A Heart Full of Gratitude”

No Mud, No Lotus

Lotuses grow from the mud and bloom into beautiful flowers.  The mud has been plentiful this year.  We are living through a global pandemic that has killed millions of people around the world.  It has changed the way we live our daily lives.  People who are at risk live in fear.  Even those of usContinue reading “No Mud, No Lotus”

Building Resilience One Day at a Time

I just had a miscarriage.  It still feels like I’m talking about someone else’s life when I say it.  I’ll never be able to erase the memory of walking to the bathroom in the middle of my work day, just like any other day, then looking down and seeing blood.  I proceed to take allContinue reading “Building Resilience One Day at a Time”

Shifting a Depressed Brain Toward Gratitude

With the uncertainty of when the COVID-19 crisis in our country will resolve, making plans is difficult.  My husband, friends, and I have canceled an international trip twice, for which we spent months planning—something I’m sure many can relate to.  The evenings and weekends are blank squares on the calendar, except for an occasional hikeContinue reading “Shifting a Depressed Brain Toward Gratitude”

Mental Illness in the Workplace

It’s exhausting to care so deeply for others, to give so much of yourself day in and day out, and to constantly put yourself into the shoes of the suffering so that you can truly empathize with their experience.  This is what I do as an occupational therapist.  I work with children and their familiesContinue reading “Mental Illness in the Workplace”

Willfulness: Personal Enemy Number One

As my physical anxiety symptoms make their unwelcome return, I have been reflecting on the last few weeks.  What were the triggers?  Why is anxiety increasing instead of improving?  Well I think there is one obvious trigger—the stress and uncertainty of the election.  Add to that continued worry and difficulty with my fertility journey, andContinue reading “Willfulness: Personal Enemy Number One”

My Dialectical Life

Therapy has changed my life by helping me transform rigid thought patterns I didn’t even know I had to more fluid and flexible ones.  When I first started, I was able to acknowledge that the world existed in shades of gray, yet I forced myself into a life of black and white, rigid and unforgiving,Continue reading “My Dialectical Life”

Finding Beauty in Imperfection

Perfect—a word that carries a weight too heavy to sustain.  Perfect is a crutch I have used for much of my life.  Imperfect and broken on the inside, I dared not expose the bruises to the outside world.  I feared rejection, embarrassment, isolation, and shame.  What I didn’t realize is that by denying myself theContinue reading “Finding Beauty in Imperfection”

Mental Health Matters (Guest Post)

After sharing part of my personal mental health journey on Facebook, Ali invited me to share a bit of my own story via her blog. I have appreciated the opportunity to spend time collecting my thoughts; sometimes I am guilty of progressing through life without taking time to truly reflect. For me, writing is aContinue reading “Mental Health Matters (Guest Post)”