Shifting a Depressed Brain Toward Gratitude

With the uncertainty of when the COVID-19 crisis in our country will resolve, making plans is difficult.  My husband, friends, and I have canceled an international trip twice, for which we spent months planning—something I’m sure many can relate to.  The evenings and weekends are blank squares on the calendar, except for an occasional hikeContinue reading “Shifting a Depressed Brain Toward Gratitude”

Mental Illness in the Workplace

It’s exhausting to care so deeply for others, to give so much of yourself day in and day out, and to constantly put yourself into the shoes of the suffering so that you can truly empathize with their experience.  This is what I do as an occupational therapist.  I work with children and their familiesContinue reading “Mental Illness in the Workplace”

Willfulness: Personal Enemy Number One

As my physical anxiety symptoms make their unwelcome return, I have been reflecting on the last few weeks.  What were the triggers?  Why is anxiety increasing instead of improving?  Well I think there is one obvious trigger—the stress and uncertainty of the election.  Add to that continued worry and difficulty with my fertility journey, andContinue reading “Willfulness: Personal Enemy Number One”

You Are Not Your Thoughts

“Imagine all of the things you would do if you didn’t believe the negative thoughts you have about yourself.”  A rush of emotion–shame and sadness that lie dormant deep inside me made their way to the surface as large, sopping tears filled my eyes.  I was in my dialectical behavior therapy (DBT) group and IContinue reading “You Are Not Your Thoughts”

My Dialectical Life

Therapy has changed my life by helping me transform rigid thought patterns I didn’t even know I had to more fluid and flexible ones.  When I first started, I was able to acknowledge that the world existed in shades of gray, yet I forced myself into a life of black and white, rigid and unforgiving,Continue reading “My Dialectical Life”

Finding Beauty in Imperfection

Perfect—a word that carries a weight too heavy to sustain.  Perfect is a crutch I have used for much of my life.  Imperfect and broken on the inside, I dared not expose the bruises to the outside world.  I feared rejection, embarrassment, isolation, and shame.  What I didn’t realize is that by denying myself theContinue reading “Finding Beauty in Imperfection”

Mental Health Matters (Guest Post)

After sharing part of my personal mental health journey on Facebook, Ali invited me to share a bit of my own story via her blog. I have appreciated the opportunity to spend time collecting my thoughts; sometimes I am guilty of progressing through life without taking time to truly reflect. For me, writing is aContinue reading “Mental Health Matters (Guest Post)”

Let’s Talk About Suicide Again

Here I am, floating above the real Ali, watching myself being told the rules regarding silverware—pick it up before you eat, return it when finished.  I am being told the rules regarding visitors, shoelaces, shower limits, and staff checks every 15 minutes.  I am thinking to myself, what am I doing here?  How did thisContinue reading “Let’s Talk About Suicide Again”

Grow Through What You Go Through

This weekend I am celebrating my 31st birthday, which in itself is not a big deal at all.  But for me, this birthday carries a heavy weight as it marks ten years that I have been with my husband, Duece.  Duece has been with me through my most difficult life experiences—the sudden, unexpected, and muchContinue reading “Grow Through What You Go Through”

Staying Hopeful in a Polarized World

This morning we wake up to a gloomier and more frightening world than we lived in yesterday, as the death of Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg reminds us that our basic rights are being held in a tight squeeze by the government, in which the very people we elected to represent our voice seem to careContinue reading “Staying Hopeful in a Polarized World”