Finding Beauty in Imperfection

Perfect—a word that carries a weight too heavy to sustain.  Perfect is a crutch I have used for much of my life.  Imperfect and broken on the inside, I dared not expose the bruises to the outside world.  I feared rejection, embarrassment, isolation, and shame.  What I didn’t realize is that by denying myself theContinue reading “Finding Beauty in Imperfection”

Mental Health Matters (Guest Post)

After sharing part of my personal mental health journey on Facebook, Ali invited me to share a bit of my own story via her blog. I have appreciated the opportunity to spend time collecting my thoughts; sometimes I am guilty of progressing through life without taking time to truly reflect. For me, writing is aContinue reading “Mental Health Matters (Guest Post)”

Let’s Talk About Suicide Again

Here I am, floating above the real Ali, watching myself being told the rules regarding silverware—pick it up before you eat, return it when finished.  I am being told the rules regarding visitors, shoelaces, shower limits, and staff checks every 15 minutes.  I am thinking to myself, what am I doing here?  How did thisContinue reading “Let’s Talk About Suicide Again”

Grow Through What You Go Through

This weekend I am celebrating my 31st birthday, which in itself is not a big deal at all.  But for me, this birthday carries a heavy weight as it marks ten years that I have been with my husband, Duece.  Duece has been with me through my most difficult life experiences—the sudden, unexpected, and muchContinue reading “Grow Through What You Go Through”

Staying Hopeful in a Polarized World

This morning we wake up to a gloomier and more frightening world than we lived in yesterday, as the death of Justice Ruth Bader Ginsburg reminds us that our basic rights are being held in a tight squeeze by the government, in which the very people we elected to represent our voice seem to careContinue reading “Staying Hopeful in a Polarized World”

Let’s Talk About Suicide

Possible trigger topics: self-harm, suicide September is Suicide Prevention Awareness Month.  According to the Center for Disease Control and Prevention (CDC), suicide is a leading cause of death in the United States, and the rates are rising.  Our young people are especially vulnerable.  Fifty percent of lifetime mental illness begins by age 14.  Suicide isContinue reading “Let’s Talk About Suicide”

Arming for Battle Against Depression

Immersing myself in nature allows me to both disconnect from the problems of my small life while connecting with the power of the earth.  With my feet on the ground, step by step, I am reminded that I am not the center of the world.  I am merely one of billions of human beings luckyContinue reading “Arming for Battle Against Depression”

Risk. If Only I was Writing a Guide to the Board Game…

Making the decision to get pregnant was not an easy one, nor was it one that my husband and I took lightly.  Many mental health disorders have been diagnosed in my family, including my father, and relatives on both maternal and paternal sides of the family.  And obviously, I myself have bipolar disorder.  In additionContinue reading “Risk. If Only I was Writing a Guide to the Board Game…”

Leave Me Be, Anxiety!

Here I sit, on a beautiful Sunday morning, outside on the floating ‘zen’ deck my husband helped me build.  The air is still cool.  The birds are singing lovely melodies.  The warmth of the sun peeking through the trees is warm on my face.  I am surrounded by the green leaves of trees in myContinue reading “Leave Me Be, Anxiety!”

A Bump in the Road is Just That

We often grieve the loss of loved ones, but have you ever considered that we grieve the loss of our health?  Coping with the ‘loss’ of my mental health due to lifelong mental illness has been complicated.  I am still working toward reality acceptance and processing what this ‘loss’ means for me, my loved ones,Continue reading “A Bump in the Road is Just That”